It really frustrates me to no end when people set out dictate my life. My own Mother, bless her soul has never even tired to do that. She understands that I’m a dreamer, I like keeping shut from the world as I divulge into strings of light and ribbon, as I transcend time through my imagination. Many of my actions are done on impulse and with the sheer last minuet catch your breath hope that they will come out right. But it seems very few other people are of the same mind set as my dear Mammie. My big sister(sorority lingo), is amazing she truly is but she forgets that she’s my “big” not my mother. She has no right to tell me who I can and cannot take when I went into chapter to ask Miguel to be my big brother. It is my moment, I and Miguels alone and however I choose to ask and whomever I choose to bring to help me is little and of no concern to her. I didn’t even want her there because it was MIGUEL and I’s moment, I wanted it to be just us two in the photos and everything, because he deserves to feel every now and then like he’s the most important person in the world for everything he does. So that down right angered me and then she tells me that i should have brought my twin(More sorority lingo) Yes my twin is wonderful but once again this was Miguel and I’s moment no-one else. Why do I have to share? Why can’t I be selfish? Why do I for gods fucking sake have to include my entire family tree in all my decisions? I fucking don’t. I don’t even include my mammie, my own blood in half of my decisions so why should I run every little minuscule detail and figure by them? I’m just really frustrated and now I have to memorize Japanese words for a test and my eyes hurt so i’m wearing glasses that make me all forms of ugly and I’m left feeling like my experience with Miguel didn’t go as well as it should.